nothing

im late :x

2008-10-18T05:52:00.000-07:00

:)
this is my dear goldfish's method of refreshening the air in my house O_O"

first week of school was alright, but now doing so,
i know that definately, the worst is YET to come -_-"
audition is coming soon @_@
sometimes i wonder, why are fun things stressful too ):

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!

2008-10-10T08:55:00.001-07:00

lol it sounds sooo ego saying happy birthday to myself, lol
thanks to __ for wishing me happy birthday first XD you know who you are :D
i reallllly appreciate it ^^ thanks :)

- will update later or tomorrow -

i got a psp overnight.

2008-09-25T01:54:00.000-07:00

- only her personal caretaker understands what she says
- she is anti cats, dogs and spiders
- she puts everything she likes into the shopping basket
- she is always busy
- she is always covered in a layer of hardwork water in my house in less than an hour
- she says her friends are not good to her and prefers mummy and daddy
- she rather watches tv than go school
- she is my niece. D:

ok, i have my room now, i have my table now, i have my digimon now :D (old news)

WAAAHHHH!!! ok i havent been doing the blog justice yet again!!!!

Goldfish status : trainee in SISPEC
breakdown of events
17th sep: made a DELICIOUS PIE fit for a fish + lovely homer shorts for the bdae boi
last wednesday:got slapped left right centre by vocal teacher
last thursday: recording for vocal started
last friday: went sentosa :D i wonder if ill take pics there too when i get married.
last saturday: band outing, instead of watching some $60 show, izu's dad indirectly treated us to a movie (DISASTER MOVIE), goldfish joined us last minute, talked about psp at night
last sunday: goldfish stayed over in the fish tank and i got an early bdae present at 7pm
last monday:goldfish bk in @ 8am with tengyao @ boonlay

isnt that an update? :D

HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!

2008-08-24T09:03:00.001-07:00

Matsuri was fun, i wanna wear a yukata next year :P not that i didnt want to this year but, ^^" i duno
they were all special,
thanks xian for the tokyo tower sovenior!
happy birthday Tyron :D

lets go overseas! XD

yay! our band is going to be ALIVE again!!!!!!!!!!!!
exams are over!!!!!!!!
dreams are stil hauntingme every night!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha!!!!! i'm still not saving money, man, this never happened to me before lol
k, planning to spend some tml, save the rest of the week :D

we ate at sakae just 2 of us for the first time, and shared a 3scoop gelato for the first time, there are so many things to do D: the weekend is so short! i need to save money for new specs :x

pine berry apple pine juice

2008-08-15T03:51:00.000-07:00

there are some things i never forget
i have been having weird dreams..

internet back ^^"

2008-08-13T06:55:00.001-07:00

:D lenny!

exams are next week, dear goldfish please hurry come back from field camp T_T
Telvin is a nice guy haha :D
Have fun in japan xian!

hip diners is actually billy bombers! lol

): my internet is DOWN

2008-08-10T22:31:00.000-07:00

event went well, credit goes to agdoron, kaixin, kx's lil bro, YCKsec, sehao's injured toe and gf, and others :D

this is officially the first time we have eaten together at ajisen XD
yes, heard much about this place from amaris and em, amaris, so i thought i'd bring my bf here xD
in the end i din have money to treat u >_<>

once again back in army: have fun at field camp, no bathing for 6 awesome days! hope the rain cleaned up the forest for u :D and use shampoo when u get back ok? ^^

im finally getting it back.. shh :3

2008-08-06T06:21:00.000-07:00

daijobu *smiles for ___*

I hope my bf is not stupid >_<>

Overnight event, i hope it all goes well! :3
savings plan = fail too (aims to back up next week) did my fair share of shopping today @_@
i miss alot of things ):

brain goo

2008-08-03T20:06:00.000-07:00

Xfiles was not exactly the best movie to watch lol

*updates later*

*pokes* omg you are tan! :D

Dear, dont be deprived and over eat your junk food, they will forever be here waiting for u XD
Xfiles was full of head-amputation literally -_-" it was quite horrifying and ridiculas overall ):
But watching wif goldfish is gud XD

neways, be strong and carry on :/ everything will be better soon, the right one may just be closer than you think XD in the end, 2 hearts are entwined all begin with the acceptance of both parties. There will be ups and downs; but the downs,when pulled through, deepens a relationship and this is what creates the long lasting bond. gambatte! to everyone ^^

korkor is *loves* thanks T_T im so touched even though it wasnt played by you lol XD

*weekly expenditure = fail*

2008-07-28T22:19:00.000-07:00

Finally its Tomorrow

2008-07-24T07:11:00.000-07:00

Korkor did up a cd cover too :P mine looks so cool,
i like that quote, its gona be somewhere soon i know ^_^
Does it look like a ballad? i thought with the quote, it looks like this but there is the possibility of hard rock metal inside XD

I shouldnt have, but i did ): i made a list of what i want >_< *commercialbreak*
Teeshirts?
http://happily-here.blogspot.com/
Anything else?
http://justforshopping.blogspot.com/
*breakends*

abit budget de but ah yea, online shopping is sinful -_-"
too much to do
too rushed to think
too lovesick to work

yes korkor, this is my blog, this is my proclamation :D

i need ________

2008-07-23T07:13:00.000-07:00

:D i got replies! happy me ^_^

1. Tell you why I befriended you.
2. Associate you with a song / movie.
3. Tell a random fact about you.
4. Tell a first memory about you.
5. Associate you with an animal / fruit.
6. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
7. In return, you must post this in your own LJ.

To Sabby!!
1. Heard bout you from my mom before, wanted to know you more
2. Hmm... uh.... ah...... I am a dreamer from Cardcaptor sakura, remember we sang it on the way back from camp in Malaysia?
3. Blur as a sotong
4. Quiet as a mouse in class
5. a Little mouse
6. Why are you so blur?

OMG! since when was i blur! D: dun anyhow say! Neways, haha, card captor sakura, brings back memories.. btw which camp was it? .__. i onli partially remember wan keat's phobia of leeches, and nothing more beyond that T_T

To My 姉ちゃん

1. A shared interest in music
2. 黒い涙 - NANA
3. You don't move around on stage
4. Waiting at the train station
5. Hamster?
6. I'll update this when I think of something (:D im stil checking up!)

.__. which part of me is like a hamster O_o >_<

I'll move like that next time!

bring more batteries!

2008-07-22T08:40:00.001-07:00

My fish brain boyfriend is so adorable there!
Omg, i hope army keeps him that way D:

i keep breaking studs

2008-07-18T00:57:00.000-07:00

I miss your kisses as much as I miss kissing you
Hugs and Loves from both puffy and me ^_^

Thankss korkor for the BLUEie <3

2008-07-17T05:46:00.000-07:00

1. Tell you why I befriended you.
2. Associate you with a song / movie.
3. Tell a random fact about you.
4. Tell a first memory about you.
5. Associate you with an animal / fruit.
6. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
7. In return, you must post this in your own LJ.

To Sandra
1. You are interesting XD
2. raindrops keep falling on my head (i duno why, it just feels like it you know D:)
3. short
4. makeup ._. food ._. and stuff liek that ._.
5. Kitty Cat!
6. How heavy are u now o__o

You And I Both lyrics

was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
oh things are gonna happen naturally
oh taking your advice and i'm looking on the bright side
and balancing the whole thing
oh but often times those words get tangled up in lines
and the bright light turns to night
oh until the dawn it brings
another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

cause you and i both loved
what you and i spoke of
and others just read of
others only read of the love, the love that i loved, yeah

see i'm all about them words
over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
hundreds of pages, pages, pages for words
more words then i had ever heard and i feel so alive

cause you and i both loved
what you and i spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see me now
oh love, love
you and i, you and i
not so little you and i anymore
and with this silence brings a moral story more importantly evolving
is the glory of a boy

cause you and i both loved
what you and i spoke of
and others just read of
and if you could see me now, well then i'm almost finally out of
i'm finally out of
finally, well i'm almost finally, finally
well i am free, oh i'm free

it's not okay if you had to go away
gotta remember the telephones, well they working in both ways
and i really hope to always hear them ring
otherwise i'll be here for you every night
hoping that you're doing fine, that you're okay
and i'll be missing every word you say

cause you and i both loved
what you and i spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see me now
well then i'm almost finally out of
i'm finally out of
finally, well i'm almost finally, finally out of words

(i still miss my GOLDFISH even when he plays his PSP)

I feel like i have lotsa un-answered questions

2008-07-14T08:21:00.001-07:00

:D DEVIN! OMG! you look soo cute in the screenie!!!!! like a cute bunny!! if you were taller, and tanner, i'd say u even resemble justin in that super low resolution pic!

ok ive blogged about you.
Nice new hp :P
was it free wif plan? mine came at $0 with my mother's plan :D
i wonder when will i renew my plan, i nida record all my contacts, cuz getting new plan nowadays will get you a free upgrade of simcard to use 3G.. most of my contacts are on my simcard so yea.

planning to do too many things
planning to get too many things
this is bad, online shopping = shopping in advance

Recently went to this year's fiesta@fairfield, one of the ONLY reasons why i would go back there. Neways, it was fun to a certain extent, will update pics in future. Goldfish won me a MUSHROOM which cant fit my handphone!!! I'll consider getting a free slimmer one in future >_<>
That night met up with justus and the guys :D
Had a nice not very cheap high cholesterol potato salad with free $15 vouchers (if u spend 30), I have lots of those for both the clarkquay and century square branch so if you need any, pls contact me BY end of july as it expires then.

1. Tell you why I befriended you.
2. Associate you with a song / movie.
3. Tell a random fact about you.
4. Tell a first memory about you.
5. Associate you with an animal / fruit.
6. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
7. In return, you must post this in your own LJ.

To Devie
1. You are a pervert, same kind as justin
2. erm.. larcencial songs?
3. INDO MEE
4. small guy but one who carries hentai manga whereever he goes
5. hmm.. bunny?
6. Honestly, did you pass anything rated to my boyfriend AT ALL? (urls and games included)

To Otouto chan
1. Inspirational
2. winning days
3. playing an electric guitar and singing with a high voice
4. emo
5. penguin (colour wise?)
6. What are your favourite colours? (i cant think of any questions >_<)

haiz.. i miss my GOLDFISH T_T

ok, guilty as charged >_<

2008-06-15T11:05:00.000-07:00

D: i feel sooo sooooo lazy! been quite awhile since i blogged :x
ok, em, updates first XD

latest placed i worked in
- IT show suntec
Person with shorted name i call
- oi
Probably the tallest person i know
- someone from ITshow
What i have been doing the last 4 days
- IT show
recovering from fatigue due to
- IT show

....
tired..
stamina = fail
sales record = not bad
sales skill = jialat ._.~

ok, neways, fishy gonna go fly off to japan!!! I shall wait ferr my japanese soveniours ^^v
but cant see/hug/kish for a whole week.. ): gona be so lonely T_T

been so.. spendthrift recently, i must, stop, wanting to buy stuff >< I kinda got into this really cool shopping spree mode even though im POKAI, cant even afford a $4 dinner O_O (but i lent money away this time, not spent) Can anyone play animal crossing wif me? :(

Im living all the way at bukit batok now @.@ may life be good here too ^^ gotta get used to living in a mansionette, every night cant go to the fridge to easily, obstacle staircase to overcome.

i misplaced my usb to my handphone!!!!!!!!! no pics until then >_<

2008-04-15T09:04:00.001-07:00

caramelldansen~ wooO~

2008-03-29T18:33:00.000-07:00

o_o i duno why but ive like got no inspiration to blog -.-

MIA: what should i blog?

2008-02-18T17:30:00.000-08:00

:D i searched my dear on google D:
only 1 relevant result.
.
click image to view it ba ._.

run more :D maybe you'll get famous one day /hmm

i found out i had a common name.. ==

badi daddy!!!! i luvbs all the milkshake you alwayz giv ^_^
pico mommy!!! *hearts* i miss you in aussie, *hugs*

im supposed to be in school!

2008-01-20T17:48:00.000-08:00

dunno wad to say the monkey wont do~
dumplings and monkey stew XD
i randomly came across this awesome animaniacs song haha!

:D

2007-12-30T20:52:00.000-08:00

backstage stress relieve

thanks to those who came to support us >_< waaa so touched, come reali just to support us ah..
thanks our band leader for doing so much for us, the necklace, shirt, aha
thanks to fanfan for being permanant loaner to members all the time
thanks to mama for ribena everyday
thanks to my goldfish for em.. yea haha :D
1st gig

over, more to come :D

finally met jane jie :3

haha! copied from band blog*

2007-12-02T01:10:00.001-08:00

☆Project BreakOut!★ 【Vol.1 Japanesque Music Collection】

※29TH December 2007※

△Tickets on Sale, 29TH November 2007 Onwards▼

◆Preorder Tickets are Selling at $7◇

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LIMITED!! EXCLUSIVE!◆

◆Feature Vics From Lucify◇

◇Please Support Us By Coming Down◆

☆Those Who Are Keen Of Coming Including My Friends, Preordering Of The Tickets Are Available NOW!! Greatly Appreciate All Supports!★

□Tickets Sold On The Day Itself At Door Will Be $8■

※Kallang CC 《Boon Keng MRT Station》※

※『5PM To 10PM』※

※《2mins Walk To CC》※

※「Fully Air-Conditioned, Booths Avail.」※

※ local J-punk/Lolita/Cosplay Fashion Outlets, Language Schools, School Clubs, Promoting Their Merchandise /Services At Their Promotional Rates ※

♂Performing Bands Include♀

☆Oriental Couch★

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△1 Guest Band▼

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∴PLEASE COME SUPPORT US & MOST IMPORTANTLY SUPPORT JROCK/JPOP MUSIC∴

【Ps: This gig has nothing to do with the be-lated notorious J-code or anything related to the band REI. Thanks.. .】

all mad out

2007-11-26T22:59:00.000-08:00

*dances*
what should i do? i think thats my seemingly favourite question, anyone disagrees?

ok, lets see

2007-11-10T01:36:00.000-08:00

i shall update for the strangeness of strangeboy. *ahem*

was too lazy to update cuz ive been internet inactive of late.

:D

-thats all-

omg.

2007-10-29T08:08:00.001-07:00

im sorry if i let you down..

hi?

2007-10-22T05:37:00.000-07:00

some ppl are not worth waiting for.

cut=ed hair

2007-10-09T07:43:00.000-07:00

ok let me ask you honestly, what part of cut hair do i visually imply
-tattoo
-drugs
-smoking
-gangsters
-wildness
-madness
-that i will spend hundreds of dollars on hairdos with all my money
-that i will continuously spend at hairdressers every few week
-that i want to cut so short that i look like a boy
-that i want to cut botak
-that i rather have no hair like people who cannot grow hair

ok, let me ask you, is my hair insanely short?
do i look like a boy? or even worse, like i want to be botak?
do i look like a gangster?
do i look like i want to take drugs and destroy my life?
do i look like i have too much money?

i wonder, who has parents like mine.

it hurts more when people hurt your heart, cuz u know they have 1 too..

2007-10-06T17:44:00.000-07:00

do u feel hurt if ur pet dog runs away after u feed it?
do u feel hurt if the tortoise you have taken such good care of walks out of the window?

people are all hypocrites. im not saying im not, but the extent of hypocricy can sometimes be so farfetch'd or contradicting that it goes beyond hilariousness to pure animosity.

i woke up crying, i wonder if my dad would reali slap me, i duno what to do anymore, where..r..u
My mum threatens that she used to use keys to slash my older siblings till they bled, and asks me if i wanna bleed too. (WTH OF A QN IS THAT =_= and shes my mum)
i sharea room with my sis and our room has our parents stuff too, and my parents blame us continuosly for the mess, as if 2 people sharing a room where we share a wardrobe, share cupboard, share table, share 1 stupid chair also, i mean, like how are we supposed to share these stuff! we dont even have enough space to store things!
so i work in the hall, when u work in the hall, there just aint any peace, everyone is always in the hall.

i'ma converse size 4 1/2 ==..
whats ur show size? big bigger or biggest?

comics

2007-09-30T00:56:00.000-07:00

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

stupid zwinky

2007-09-29T19:47:00.000-07:00

played a game for 1/2 and hour to earn 30 zwinkychievement =_=
i need 2k zwinkychievements to use the locked stuff.
30/2000.. i get the feeling it will take a long time...
headache..

so many people are getting merried now haha

2007-09-27T09:52:00.000-07:00

http://flightsimx.archive.amnesia.com.au/
ok, i dun like paper aeroplanes!
especially after this game! i mean, that paper aeroplane looks so normal!!!
they all look the same! no style!!
no fair, i cant get it further than 100m T_T
a miracle i threw 95m in 20 tries haha

4metres, not bad, i think its my average XD

but if a paper aeroplane was made by you, i trust it will go far, far far away~

neways, im probably gona use deviant art again :D

isnt my neopet adorable :D *i like her/his(iforgot) glasses*

For the Last time, i dont wear blanco!

2007-09-23T05:04:00.000-07:00

i want a ds :D something like tht wud be nice ^^

gona shift house next year T_T

i cant type much. stomuch ache....

i missed you. still missing you. on the other hand, there are some people i wish i missed instead.

2007-09-20T10:58:00.001-07:00

hi, long time no see.
where have you been? i duno
everytime the wind carries a fly, or a cockroach, you wish you werent in the way.
but if it gets stuck to your bag, its just the same.
i wish it was so easy to kill a cockcroach but i cant help thinking its a life too and will feel hurt.
plus its so big when u squish it you feel it too.
it bugs me.

nice story, but if i dun remember someone, i will just say i dont remember unless i am very sure you are someone important that i shudnt forget unless i will get into trouble xD
like the way he went oh ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha~ singing :)
tht's why i said wasnt it~
-there are some people i never forget-

the humans are dead. wonder if i'll be alive then :D
thanks emo, u made my day*

my sister =)

2007-09-11T10:01:00.001-07:00

carmen.

2007-08-21T00:05:00.000-07:00

this entry is dedicated to my neice :D she upgraded my status to EE T_T i sound old now.
anyways, first things first, she is my jiejie's baby~ *baby baby!*

she cant wait to start reading..

heres a short video clip show-casing the one and only, CARMAN!! manman~

you know? the bed?

2007-08-16T03:32:00.000-07:00

btw, i Am serious about the selling bed thing :D
cant get ebay =_=" what shud i doo??

exams, study, gakuen alice, denO, ahhhh, what is my life coming to??!

ah.

2007-07-30T18:51:00.000-07:00

My post for html-ed away, i just cant do any coding =_= cant remember what ive done but im late for school now haiz.

im not abnormal yet. i guess thats a good thing.

house is in an abundant mess.
DOES ANYONE WANT A BED? having a bed for sale at $50. + a free matteress :D (urgent)

anyways, decided to open a blogshop just to sell stuff that is in my house, dear goldfish told me to tell parents open a garage sale O_o it just seems to practical but whos gona help find what is good to be sold and what is not? sort items in boxes, give flyers. maybe during holidays ba, see how, gotta persuade parents too.

so i shall now advertise the under-construction pictureless blogshop in the making*
there will be
-BIG stuff eg. bed
-Clothes
-Shoes
-Earrings
-Everything else under the sun :D eg. er.. maybe soft toys or small electronic stuff*
http://need-something-to-live.blogspot.com/
Its just a random name la, come look, will update and furthur inform of the erm.. blog aha :)

blog again.

2007-07-29T09:41:00.000-07:00

Sungei Buloh, i wanna bring you there, nature can reali bring ppl together. i dun think ill mind hiking if thts the case :P but i stil dun think i am keen to climb a mountain**

tired again lol, mebbe cuz its 1am. too many things going on. can i just take a break from everything till exam is over.

i miss jamming :<

ah!!! evil things.

lack of sleep.

2007-07-19T23:49:00.000-07:00

OmG! here is my groups video on bukit timah :)
please go in help
-view
-comment good
-rate super
-favourite!!
if you are willing

project project :) finally done, now time to plan presentation ^_^

sleepeee.. >_<

2007-07-19T05:16:00.000-07:00

i need you by my side..

lol

2007-07-12T13:02:00.000-07:00

What Be Your Nerd Type? Your Result: Musician Doo doo de doo waaaa doo de doo! (<-- That's you playing something.) Everyone appreciates the band/orchestra geeks and the pretty voices. Whether you sing in the choir, participate in a school/local band, or sit at home writing music, you contribute a joy to society that everyone can agree on. Yay! Welcome to actually doing something for poor, pathetic human souls. (Just kidding.)
Social Nerd
Artistic Nerd
Drama Nerd
Gamer/Computer Nerd
Anime Nerd
Science/Math Nerd
Literature Nerd
What Be Your Nerd Type? Quizzes for MySpace

saw it in my JR's blog so i decided to post this b4 i went to sleeep :P
nitez <3 thanks

<3 i love you anyway.

2007-07-12T08:46:00.000-07:00

Ah!! mum!!! does she know between justin and me?
*kicks justin, u should get a blog too, dunida tell people, tell me enough!

I can sing again!! i've never felt happier being able to use my voice again! i hate losing my voice.. i rather lose something else than talking and singing.
statistics show i lose my voice once a year =_="
I love me :X
i should*

Justin, you should call me more though, my mum is worried for me ">_>

haha xD i should reali bring a camera whereever i go, chess club was fun =P
what did i do today?
ah, was depressed all morning thanks to my reali sendimental junior :D
reminded me of something i chucked away for some time..
Sorry Yeo if i ruined ur mood for project. I was really upset..

Then i was 1 hour late for lecture
at least thats what i thought. i got my timing wrong and i was 2 hours late. of which lecture ended 1 hour early even though there was supposed to be makeup lecture after that. =="
i was sort of deliberately late *guilty* cuz i thought it was gona be 3 hours of talking!!
apparently i was wrong *blush*

So i went for chess club straight instead~
haha, derek so crazy, he so enthu lol
christian *pokes
And benjamin.. OMG act cute!! i look at him. he look at me.. and he tilt his head XD

just like that!!!

yea. am i a very negative person =_=

♥ ♥ ♥

2007-07-10T04:05:00.000-07:00

noo.. my entire post i was typing is gone!!!!!

anyway.. i lost my voice.. i think my throat infection spread..
i dun wanna drink anymore lemon honey T_T i drank so many bottles today cuz mum made me =X

hm. i was watching tv just now, and sis switched after the program ended.
it was some movie channel
MGM
is it the tom and jerry producer?
i was watching The purple rose in CairoRomantic isnt it~ wua~
but i hate the ending *stabs director

so sis switched channel to animax. in tsubasa chronicle 2, the syaoran has some deep low manly voice... *kicks the seiyuu
i liked it when it was boyish T_T *switches back to jap which i dont understand*
much better~ ^_^
i dun reali like english voice over.. the expressions sound fake, i duno why.. it could just be me anyhow =/

*kicks people who ignored me today
*kicks people who didnt reply all my msgs today
*kicks the bottles of honey
*kicks the rubbish on the floor
*kicks my PVL textbook
*kicks my sore troat!

♥ today was full of kicks.

I'm tired

2007-07-09T05:15:00.000-07:00

i wanna go home..
i dun think im coping..
this has to stop..
i duno how..
i guess..
i cant do what my heart doesnt want me to..
i shouldnt force myself..
i shouldnt blog words all the time..
why do i keep making stupid mistakes..
its so sickening..
it gets boring.

if you see mushrooms growing somewhere, theres that chance its infected.

2007-07-08T04:10:00.001-07:00

I have a problem.
I always think of what i should want instead of what do i want.
Is this a good or bad thing?

I seem to be lucky. Mostly in things im glad about, but for things i feel that i really want, it just seems im not that lucky.
Sometimes friends who tells you, ah, anything you wanna share, you can always tell me, i will be here to help. But they only see you as someone who you care talk about problems to, when theres anything interesting and fun going on, you are not in their mind..
-someone who rather listen to ur problems onli, but thats it, they dont realli want you in their life..
-it hurts.
-i dont like being left out..
-no one likes being left out..

Best friends. Not everyone has a friend they can consider their best friend. maybe close buddy? but not everyone has someone they can trust fully in everything they do.

i feel like i try so hard for nothing. all i accomplish now is not for myself.
what i want to do always seem to have something blocking me. i didnt say it was you.

But dun say that i dont care about you.
Dont say that i never bother about you.
Dont say i never try.
You duno how much it hurts, when i actually am..

i cant seem to get anything i want. its like im giving in to what wants me.
do i have any talents.. u all make me wonder..

im not talking about you.

2007-07-07T11:16:00.001-07:00

people you think may seem to be friends could just be companions you work and talk with. but thats it.

What do i want??

2007-07-02T21:11:00.001-07:00

i duno.. i want but at the same time i want something i cannot. and duno. its so. hard to decide.. i wish i didnt not know so many stuff..

I decided, i feel bad but im not entirely overjoyed by it, i duno why.
I hope it will be ok,
I hope its alright..
I hope i wont lose so much..
but ive already lost something.

I shouldnt be worrying about such stuff now.
I should be studying..

Posting, gotta update.

2007-07-01T09:06:00.000-07:00

Yesterday's event was a blast!

Thanks Noor, Siva, Faris, Daryl, Agdoran - etcetc

Here are some pics and erm, i will post links to vids =)

fun =)

-ah-....
i feel so guilty..
what do i want..
why..
i duno..

Its exhausting to cry when you are tired.

2007-06-22T06:07:00.001-07:00

I dunno what to do..
I'm thinking..

Finally posting again..

2007-06-21T20:39:00.000-07:00

Times are weird. I wonder why some things happen.
You never know, even 'bad' stuff could be for the best.

(copied*)
"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."

I personally feel that well.. if it doesnt actually rip you apart.. it would be so perfect T_T

So weird, to be dumped and asked for a 2nd chance is less than 5 days.
I was just accepting the fact, and thinking so much.
Maybe we shouldnt.
Maybe its better.
At least.
for now

Camps have been rather.. i duno, uneffective to keep my mind of things, they dont help.
Friends are good.
I'm so glad I have people who care for me so much.. Otherwise I don't know what I'll do..
When your mind is full of thoughts, its hard to make new friends..
As in TOTALLY new friends where you have to ask things like
- hi whats ur name?
- whats ur school?
- whats ur hobby?
- what else do u wanna let me know about u?
Its hard to accept new people when you are trying to let someone go.
maybe not fully let go, but its from somewhere deep inside..

Neways, nuff said bout that.
Parents just came home from china at 1am this morning =P
Lotsa stuffs
mum bought dresses, sandals (which im pretty sure im never wearing), bags, purses, shirts, pants (which has sewn on patterns..), a mirror, a comb, russian doll, notebooks, pen, pencil
wua..
But the dresses are quite cute tho ^_^v

yea, got caught using computer till 2 this morning, mum made a big fuss. i woke up at 8.
mum made a fuss wanted me to sleep.
Then she unpacked stuff and kept telling me wad interesting things she got.
-how was i to not go and look??-
so i look, chose stuff, packed stuff.
then, she started ordering me around,
-> go keep this is this room,
-> go keep that in that room,
-> hang these,
-> wash this,
-> sort these.

so i sat on the sofa awhile.. and she scolded me...
"When i say i want something done, i want it done immediatly!"

so much for sleeping =_=

leaving house now
have a nice day*

<3

2007-06-11T22:55:00.000-07:00

lol, i duno wad to say..

Gambatte Kai Xin!! =)

Utada Hikaru rox @@ I suddenly like simple and clean =/

Current status - home alone =X *hope bad guys like home alone doesnt come @@*

Realli good mood ^_^

2007-06-08T19:47:00.001-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/v/LHLNG08Yfok

hehe, hey ivan!!! was that where u got the i suck in guitar??!?!!
ok, i found that on jetsons blog *ahem*
lol

Neways, im happy, lol ^_^ *i duno why, maybe mood swing?*

Had a dream last night, weird lol, 2nd part was kinda like err.. i forgot o.o
ah well.. ITS finally HOLIDAYS!!! although i will be going school (supposed to at least) be in sch next mon, tues, thurs-sat
see how ba =/

i wanna do alot of stuff =/
kinda wonder how about some other stuff too. lotsa stuff xD

Neways, my family will be off to china from 12-22 =/ i will be home alone >_<>

Another day..

2007-06-06T21:24:00.001-07:00

Aha, first post after a day of not posting.. lots of firsts in this blog ^_^

Gambatte Kai Xin!! Dun get sick b4 commontest ler.. no gud >_<

examination
="/" water ="_=")"
all ="/" msn ="P" luck ="/" << huh? error ah?

Financial status
++vv++
-> Spent $2.60 today, that was lunch
-> Spent $1.50 + $4 yesterday (SIS OWES ME 6BUCKS!! i almost forgot)
-> Spent $3 + $2.50 B4 yesterday (my chicken macaroni and bigbig cup of KFC ice lemon-tea)
-> Spent $18 the other day... + $10 on EZLINK
-> forgot all the rest lol

Nocturnal owls catch mice at night *scratches head* Do mice run slower at night?

hmz.. did i forget something? or am i saving alot all of a sudden O_o i just returned Fish 16 bucks also and passed dad afew hundred of saving.. To think i was broke the other day..
Argh, my accounting is drving me nuts!! nvm, i stil got cash O_o i duno why >_<
Thnx dad =P (All taken from big daddy)

*hugs*
<3

lonely and cold

2007-06-05T05:29:00.000-07:00

Today i went to isolate myself to study. OMG i didnt expect to seriously ISOLATE myself that badly!! it was to the point i was doing one-way conversation for afew hours cuz i was lonely.. outgoing =_=

Wanted to meet you.

Ah well, went to some place farfar away, first time i went to Novena. I felt like a foreigner, never went b4. But im positive it won't be the last time i go there =)

At least i managed to complete some revision i wouldn't have done if i was home.
While studying i
- saw a 3 babies eat potato
- saw 2 babies scream
- saw many little monkey boys jumping about climbing tables and chairs
- saw at least 20 old folks walking about in the shopping centre
- saw 2 women choosing underwear at a GSS tray (i duno how but they were scrutinizing each piece they took up)
- saw a girl who i thought was a guy till she walked off (i saw her heels and got a shock)
- saw 2 KFC managers doing nothing but talk, talk and talk while those in red were working like bees
No, i wasnt distracted at all ^_^

I was practically shivering in the KFC.. The toilet was colder than the shopping centre. Why do our brains work better in colder environment? Cuz it uses more brain juice, more gear movement so more heat produced, cold surrounding cools down the gears so that they won't overheat and thus can work more.
This was the first time i was so glad the MRT was crowded, more heat generated. (although when the train moved, the wind blowing still made my goosebumps pop up like daisies)

Now i needa go Mel to find out more about my module, i still don't understand my PVL, least i still have tomorrow to revise.

Thanx for the the add oil and good lucks for commontests, same to u all too =)
These really give me motivation to study ^_^

4th June, BimBimBam

2007-06-04T06:35:00.000-07:00

Drew abit too much today? lol

Hmmz, i feel rather guilty, exams and studies just ain't getting to me these days, cant concentrate, even when i have noting better to do, i cant concentrate. How to study? Go isolate myself tomorrow, hope it helps..

Messages mean alot to me, especially if i havent contacted you for some time. Its gud both ways <3> Project revamp wardrobe + 2% exp ~level 1 20% (gotta start keeping track now aha)

thats about it for today, fun day =)

Where are you...

2007-06-03T07:25:00.000-07:00

Being influenced by my classmate... Is shopping realli that fun? I duno what to do about myself.. abit funny but im beginning to think otherwise from what i originally presumed.

Goalkeepers big size..

Cant study at all today, When i look at my book, nothing is absorbed.
i ate, slept, went toilet, cook, wash dishes, bought food, talk on phone, watch tv, laze, stone.

Cute stuff all over the place!!! AHHHHH!!! *no money*

Quite happy today, sing

First weekend of June

2007-06-02T01:30:00.000-07:00

Saturday, aha, 2nd June,
well.. I went Vivo today ^_^ Justin had free Movie tickets from his friend, went to watch movie with Xian, Jemie and Justin.
Shrek 3 was a cute show. I like Arti.
Justin went for family photoshoot today. Havent had one since ages, long time ago =)
Kinda missed the feeling, but whats past is past.. I wonder..
I think I like pictures, I feel like I missed alot when I avoided alot of camera.. Like i missed out myself in my past. aha..

I feel like getting a haircut. haha, those looks look so kewl, can you realli cut like that for me? Yep talented. ^^ I believe.

Mum keeps telling me about the deep vein trombosis.. I'm not allowed to sit down for half an hour on the floor.. otherwise blood will clot, get stroke, die or seomthing..
i use my laptop on the floor..

First post of June, quite fast huh

2007-06-01T05:07:00.000-07:00

I wonder, what will happen if i suddenly become an emo too, does it happen just like that? I duno but i dun feel like the happy go lucky super joyful me animore, I dun wanna change like this but i feel like its beckoning to me.. aha

emo, wad will happen if i copy you? i will reali seem like ur tudi huh

Life is so unfair sometimes, God seems to be testing my patience when I was testing his. Ah.. An eye for an eye a tooth for a tooth =_=
I wonder, what will I do if I wasnt so bz, will i always be out?
I wonder, if i didnt score well in poly at all, will my parents still tell me top 3 is something EXPECTED of me? I collected my bookprize certs today, what does it mean by bookprize anyway *scratches head*

haha, ill intentions? wad u mean?

Its so sudden, i feel an intrusion into my life, i see my friends all over the place without me, i always feel unneeded, like the world can do without me. Not something to feel best about but in the context of worldly thought it is true beyond all means. Its so weird that that is actually false.

So embarassing.. >_<> my body clock is betraying me of my beauty sleep.
i automatically wake up at 7.28 (2mins b4 my alarm usuali rings). I wanted to wake up at 8.30 today but..

Second point noted
-> If there is something to hide, hide it =_= dun just try to hide it, do something cuz people are always watching out for you. (even when i dont feel so)

Third point to consider
-> Change my method of studying.
Common test today was like.. hurrah, good luck to me this semester..

Forth point (kena scolded)
-> Sis hates chicken Flavoured Cup Noodles... never get that for her..

I wanna write a song, nid inspiration, need programs, need support. ^_^

Blogging is fun =) yay

Today

2007-05-31T06:41:00.000-07:00

Well, exam is tml, with me luck, i just created a blog even knowing exam is coming soon.. imagine that.. =_="

Yesterday was fun,

cant say it was very fulfilling but DAAAAHHHHHH!!!

Bad music isn't good for health,

Shifu, Gambatte =)

So weak, my strength my hope my soul..

2007-05-31T05:51:00.000-07:00

Well.. this is the first post so its a trial one..
testing