Its exhausting to cry when you are tired.

I dunno what to do..
I'm thinking..

Finally posting again..

Times are weird. I wonder why some things happen.
You never know, even 'bad' stuff could be for the best.

(copied*)
"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."

I personally feel that well.. if it doesnt actually rip you apart.. it would be so perfect T_T

So weird, to be dumped and asked for a 2nd chance is less than 5 days.
I was just accepting the fact, and thinking so much.
Maybe we shouldnt.
Maybe its better.
At least.
for now

Camps have been rather.. i duno, uneffective to keep my mind of things, they dont help.
Friends are good.
I'm so glad I have people who care for me so much.. Otherwise I don't know what I'll do..
When your mind is full of thoughts, its hard to make new friends..
As in TOTALLY new friends where you have to ask things like
- hi whats ur name?
- whats ur school?
- whats ur hobby?
- what else do u wanna let me know about u?
Its hard to accept new people when you are trying to let someone go.
maybe not fully let go, but its from somewhere deep inside..

Neways, nuff said bout that.
Parents just came home from china at 1am this morning =P
Lotsa stuffs
mum bought dresses, sandals (which im pretty sure im never wearing), bags, purses, shirts, pants (which has sewn on patterns..), a mirror, a comb, russian doll, notebooks, pen, pencil
wua..
But the dresses are quite cute tho ^_^v

yea, got caught using computer till 2 this morning, mum made a big fuss. i woke up at 8.
mum made a fuss wanted me to sleep.
Then she unpacked stuff and kept telling me wad interesting things she got.
-how was i to not go and look??-
so i look, chose stuff, packed stuff.
then, she started ordering me around,
-> go keep this is this room,
-> go keep that in that room,
-> hang these,
-> wash this,
-> sort these.

so i sat on the sofa awhile.. and she scolded me...
"When i say i want something done, i want it done immediatly!"

so much for sleeping =_=

leaving house now
have a nice day*

<3

lol, i duno wad to say..

Gambatte Kai Xin!! =)

Utada Hikaru rox @@ I suddenly like simple and clean =/

Current status - home alone =X *hope bad guys like home alone doesnt come @@*

*Realli good mood ^_^*

http://www.youtube.com/v/LHLNG08Yfok

Another day..

Aha, first post after a day of not posting.. lots of firsts in this blog ^_^

Gambatte Kai Xin!! Dun get sick b4 commontest ler.. no gud >_<

examination
="/" water ="_=")"
all ="/" msn ="P" luck ="/" << huh? error ah?

Financial status
++vv++
-> Spent $2.60 today, that was lunch
-> Spent $1.50 + $4 yesterday (SIS OWES ME 6BUCKS!! i almost forgot)
-> Spent $3 + $2.50 B4 yesterday (my chicken macaroni and bigbig cup of KFC ice lemon-tea)
-> Spent $18 the other day... + $10 on EZLINK
-> forgot all the rest lol

Nocturnal owls catch mice at night *scratches head* Do mice run slower at night?

hmz.. did i forget something? or am i saving alot all of a sudden O_o i just returned Fish 16 bucks also and passed dad afew hundred of saving.. To think i was broke the other day..
Argh, my accounting is drving me nuts!! nvm, i stil got cash O_o i duno why >_<
Thnx dad =P (All taken from big daddy)

*hugs*
<3

lonely and cold

Today i went to isolate myself to study. OMG i didnt expect to seriously ISOLATE myself that badly!! it was to the point i was doing one-way conversation for afew hours cuz i was lonely.. outgoing =_=

Wanted to meet you.

Ah well, went to some place farfar away, first time i went to Novena. I felt like a foreigner, never went b4. But im positive it won't be the last time i go there =)

At least i managed to complete some revision i wouldn't have done if i was home.
While studying i
- saw a 3 babies eat potato
- saw 2 babies scream
- saw many little monkey boys jumping about climbing tables and chairs
- saw at least 20 old folks walking about in the shopping centre
- saw 2 women choosing underwear at a GSS tray (i duno how but they were scrutinizing each piece they took up)
- saw a girl who i thought was a guy till she walked off (i saw her heels and got a shock)
- saw 2 KFC managers doing nothing but talk, talk and talk while those in red were working like bees
No, i wasnt distracted at all ^_^

I was practically shivering in the KFC.. The toilet was colder than the shopping centre. Why do our brains work better in colder environment? Cuz it uses more brain juice, more gear movement so more heat produced, cold surrounding cools down the gears so that they won't overheat and thus can work more.
This was the first time i was so glad the MRT was crowded, more heat generated. (although when the train moved, the wind blowing still made my goosebumps pop up like daisies)

Now i needa go Mel to find out more about my module, i still don't understand my PVL, least i still have tomorrow to revise.

Thanx for the the add oil and good lucks for commontests, same to u all too =)
These really give me motivation to study ^_^

4th June, BimBimBam

Drew abit too much today? lol

Hmmz, i feel rather guilty, exams and studies just ain't getting to me these days, cant concentrate, even when i have noting better to do, i cant concentrate. How to study? Go isolate myself tomorrow, hope it helps..

Messages mean alot to me, especially if i havent contacted you for some time. Its gud both ways <3> Project revamp wardrobe + 2% exp ~level 1 20% (gotta start keeping track now aha)

thats about it for today, fun day =)

Where are you...

Being influenced by my classmate... Is shopping realli that fun? I duno what to do about myself.. abit funny but im beginning to think otherwise from what i originally presumed.

Goalkeepers big size..

Cant study at all today, When i look at my book, nothing is absorbed.
i ate, slept, went toilet, cook, wash dishes, bought food, talk on phone, watch tv, laze, stone.

Cute stuff all over the place!!! AHHHHH!!! *no money*

Quite happy today, sing

First weekend of June

Saturday, aha, 2nd June,
well.. I went Vivo today ^_^ Justin had free Movie tickets from his friend, went to watch movie with Xian, Jemie and Justin.
Shrek 3 was a cute show. I like Arti.
Justin went for family photoshoot today. Havent had one since ages, long time ago =)
Kinda missed the feeling, but whats past is past.. I wonder..
I think I like pictures, I feel like I missed alot when I avoided alot of camera.. Like i missed out myself in my past. aha..

I feel like getting a haircut. haha, those looks look so kewl, can you realli cut like that for me? Yep talented. ^^ I believe.

Mum keeps telling me about the deep vein trombosis.. I'm not allowed to sit down for half an hour on the floor.. otherwise blood will clot, get stroke, die or seomthing..
i use my laptop on the floor..

First post of June, quite fast huh

I wonder, what will happen if i suddenly become an emo too, does it happen just like that? I duno but i dun feel like the happy go lucky super joyful me animore, I dun wanna change like this but i feel like its beckoning to me.. aha

emo, wad will happen if i copy you? i will reali seem like ur tudi huh

Life is so unfair sometimes, God seems to be testing my patience when I was testing his. Ah.. An eye for an eye a tooth for a tooth =_=
I wonder, what will I do if I wasnt so bz, will i always be out?
I wonder, if i didnt score well in poly at all, will my parents still tell me top 3 is something EXPECTED of me? I collected my bookprize certs today, what does it mean by bookprize anyway *scratches head*

haha, ill intentions? wad u mean?

Its so sudden, i feel an intrusion into my life, i see my friends all over the place without me, i always feel unneeded, like the world can do without me. Not something to feel best about but in the context of worldly thought it is true beyond all means. Its so weird that that is actually false.

So embarassing.. >_<> my body clock is betraying me of my beauty sleep.
i automatically wake up at 7.28 (2mins b4 my alarm usuali rings). I wanted to wake up at 8.30 today but..

Second point noted
-> If there is something to hide, hide it =_= dun just try to hide it, do something cuz people are always watching out for you. (even when i dont feel so)

Third point to consider
-> Change my method of studying.
Common test today was like.. hurrah, good luck to me this semester..

Forth point (kena scolded)
-> Sis hates chicken Flavoured Cup Noodles... never get that for her..

I wanna write a song, nid inspiration, need programs, need support. ^_^

Blogging is fun =) yay