Finally posting again..

Times are weird. I wonder why some things happen.
You never know, even 'bad' stuff could be for the best.

(copied*)
"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."

I personally feel that well.. if it doesnt actually rip you apart.. it would be so perfect T_T

So weird, to be dumped and asked for a 2nd chance is less than 5 days.
I was just accepting the fact, and thinking so much.
Maybe we shouldnt.
Maybe its better.
At least.
for now

Camps have been rather.. i duno, uneffective to keep my mind of things, they dont help.
Friends are good.
I'm so glad I have people who care for me so much.. Otherwise I don't know what I'll do..
When your mind is full of thoughts, its hard to make new friends..
As in TOTALLY new friends where you have to ask things like
- hi whats ur name?
- whats ur school?
- whats ur hobby?
- what else do u wanna let me know about u?
Its hard to accept new people when you are trying to let someone go.
maybe not fully let go, but its from somewhere deep inside..

Neways, nuff said bout that.
Parents just came home from china at 1am this morning =P
Lotsa stuffs
mum bought dresses, sandals (which im pretty sure im never wearing), bags, purses, shirts, pants (which has sewn on patterns..), a mirror, a comb, russian doll, notebooks, pen, pencil
wua..
But the dresses are quite cute tho ^_^v

yea, got caught using computer till 2 this morning, mum made a big fuss. i woke up at 8.
mum made a fuss wanted me to sleep.
Then she unpacked stuff and kept telling me wad interesting things she got.
-how was i to not go and look??-
so i look, chose stuff, packed stuff.
then, she started ordering me around,
-> go keep this is this room,
-> go keep that in that room,
-> hang these,
-> wash this,
-> sort these.

so i sat on the sofa awhile.. and she scolded me...
"When i say i want something done, i want it done immediatly!"

so much for sleeping =_=

leaving house now
have a nice day*