What do i want??

i duno.. i want but at the same time i want something i cannot. and duno. its so. hard to decide.. i wish i didnt not know so many stuff..

I decided, i feel bad but im not entirely overjoyed by it, i duno why.
I hope it will be ok,
I hope its alright..
I hope i wont lose so much..
but ive already lost something.

I shouldnt be worrying about such stuff now.
I should be studying..